// AMCK

Just over a month ago I had the previlage of accompanying fantastic photographer Ryan Bater down to London to photograph with the wonderful dance and male model agency AMCK Models.
The experience was one I defiantly won't forget! Despite not having been to London since I was about 5 years old, we surprisingly didn't get lost hardly at all! It was a really good opportunity for me to experience a taste of every day life in London and what it would be like if I were to go to London Fashion College, which I have been considering for a while now. In the whole three days we managed to visit the Big Ben, Sohos & the Chinatown, Covent Gardens, and even Portobello Market! All lovely experiences that I will take back in memory!

I tested with a selection of new face models and unfortunately had to dive straight back into my work when I arrived home again so I never got to showcase any of the work, but I have recently finished some previews of them, so I thought blog one and if you like that you can view the rest on the link below it! Enjoy!

This shot is actually an out take, but I fell in love with the movement of it.

You can view a few more here! - www.anniaharrup.4ormat.com/boys

// midnight thoughts

I do my best thinking at night

I also do my over thinking at night, but it doesn't always become bad thoughts, I just think too much and can never fully rest my head to sleep.

Tonight I got to thinking about how much of a turn every aspect of my life has taken over the past three months, there has been bad turns and good turns, very very good turns, confusing turns and turns that are still turning! I'm not sure I can describe it in a way that won't just be a jumble of floundering words and a really inaccurately structured thought process but I have kind of felt like I've been floating around with the intention of trying out life as I've never experienced it before. I keep conjuring up mental lists of things I want to do, things I want to experience and have recently found myself feeling the need to do them now. For example, I have decided that I really want to go skinny dipping and fly in a hot air balloon.. this isn't something I would every consider because I'm scared of being in water of which I can't see the bottom, and terrified of heights!

I'm baffling myself with the concept of growing up, having to prepare myself for maturity and the responsibilities that comes with that. I then later questioned myself on this and it occurred to me that technically no human is ever grown up. We are all still growing older until the day that we die. Society is what categorises the age group of young and old.. at least I think so anyway.

I sometimes think I will always stay the way i am - mature in reality and reasoning but I will forever have an escape of a childlike fantasy in my mind, where every day has a rainbow in the sky and everything sparkles like moonglitter. (ooh look at my magical grammar!)

My point? I'm going a little crazy trying to understand how I can have come from a really draining and emotionally constricting state of mind into a sense of absolute freedom and happiness in the space of under three months, but I know that I defiantly owe it to my God, because I'm pretty sure my flimsy body couldn't handle that change without him.

I feel so blessed :)

Meadham Kirchhoff

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I'm taking a rest from my super duper busy schedule due to unexpected flu, but I got a little too excited at the prospect of blogging again to wait until the end of the week!

I have been diving into a lot of inspiration recently. I keep feeling like my style is fluctuating between so many different styles, which is really confusing for me. I am still trying to find my feet in that I guess, but anyway - in trying to find my feet I keep looking for inspiration around the internet and I stumbled across Saga Sig's blog The Neverending Story and she has recently photographed backstage work for my favourite fashion designer Meadham Kirchhoff. I have only featured a few photos from the set below, but you can view the rest of her photoset here.

I haven't ever really shared my favourite photographers, fashion designers, or artists before but I wanted to show you some of the photographs that Saga Sig took and the amazing designs of his new collection. They are absolutely heavenly and make me feel fluffy and happy inside. I literally bounce back to childhood memories of fluffy hair bobbles and ice cream vans every time I look through this collection.